Disappointed

In life, we all face disappointments and I'm no different. I was so excited for this day to arrive only to be disappointed. The Top that I had arranged my rope scene with is unable to make the party tonight. In his email, he did ask for a raincheck which I gladly agreed too.

I had been thinking about not going for several reasons. The first one is work is kicking my ass. After 5 months of being off work, I'm having trouble sleeping at night and I'm just so worn out by Friday. I know it will get better and its going to take time to change my sleep schedule. Also I need to get use to being active during the day again. Plus with just getting back to work, I had bills and really couldn't afford at this time. However, events scheduled next month and through the summer should prove to be just as great as the one I'm missing.

Sometimes it sucks to be a responsible adult.

This got me thinking this morning. I feel a lot of pity for some women that I have encountered in the recent years. They appear to be jealous and insecure. They are unable to let go of toxic relationships or see the toxic person as the problem. They would rather believe the lies that are offered by the toxic person than see the patterns that exist. The impact of the toxic person has severely affect their lives but they are unable to move past and remain stagnant.

Oh well, not my problem. I have made the decision to move forward and not let them affect me any longer. By doing this, I have released a lot of stress and I'm able to focus on what is important.