Continued Disappointment

I find myself continuely being disappointed with potential partners. They begin to chat, getting to know each other. I continue to hear the similar statements about not being able to find someone but no one takes the time to know me. How do they know I'm not the right person?

They often become upset when I confront them about the lack of communication. Instead of accepting I may have a point, I'm accused of being child like or acting like I'm in high school.

I don't play games but if I'm unhappy about something I ask questions or make statements. Instead of taking time a discussing the situation, I'm ignored.

I've spent a life time being ignored, I won't be just cuz someone can't man up and talk. I move on.

I want someone to follow though with their statements. Show me that there is action behind their words and not just that they are telling me things I want to hear.

I also want to be a priority. I want someone to make me just as important as I make them. Maybe my expections are too high?

Weirdest Dream

OMG...I just woke from the weirdest dream. I had a baby, went back to college and was involved with a gang just to play softball.

Attention Whore

Wow...I was told tonight that I was an attention whore. I was demanding this particular person sole attention. He doesn't know my past and wouldn't listen to the reasons why I wanted attention. And he can't understand why he has only seen me 3 times in about 7 years. 

Personally, he is the one that is self-centered and feels entitled. The only thing he can do is blame me and tell me I'm wrong in the thinking and philosophy.

I've spent a life time being unimportant to men. I think I have a right and deserve a little attention from whoever wants to be with me. If they don't want to spend a little time meeting my needs, there's no reason to consider putting effort into anything. 

Men also figure since I identify as bi that there should always be another female involved. This is a major turn off. I wish the would get to know me and allow us to explore each other. Than we can go on the prowl for a third. The prowling would be together so we could find someone we each agree on but this thought appears to be lost on all of then.

I the bottom line is I don't like all females. Some are shady and have there own agenda. Females also lie especially to the males because of their agenda. 

I have found a successful three some will be when the female is interested in both parties not just the male. This is another thought lost on the males.

Well I've vented enough tonight.