Goodbye 2013

2013 has been a very stressful year for me personally. I thought I was on task for increasing my involvement in my community only to hit several stumbling blocks. 

First my sister was found dead which put me in a tail spin. We were estranged but that doesn't take away from her suddenness or the loss I feel. I had so much to say and will never have the chance. 

Then my grandson finally gets his transplant. Waiting 4 years for his organs really wears on a family's nerves, then the 12 hour surgery waiting to see how it went. It was a total ordeal that one is never ready for. He has done fantastic with his recovery with only a few road blocks.

On the personal side, I'm not involved and didn't really have any potentials. But I've been taken by surprise, I've had someone reach out to me that has really impressed me. He ask if I text then called me. We've been talking off and on this evening. Its not sex talk, its actually adult conversation. Getting to know one another...I'm totally surprised. This might indicate 2014 may have some potential.

Looking up

The last couple of years have been really rough and especially stressful. I've had a family issue that remained a priority and prevented me from moving forward. Now that issue has been resolved and I'm left with an emptiness one which was unexpected. 

I had thought I had everything under control. This includes chasing those I feel are unacceptable away. I need someone that is strong in every aspect but open and understanding. I need to know I'm a priority at some point in the relationship and will receive some attention at times. I'm going to be protected, not left to fend for myself.

It seems that a lot of my stressors have been resolved. I've bought a new car after a year of my old one being in decline. This severely limited my ability to attend events. 

On the positive side, I had a door opened. I tried flying and loved it. Now I'm planning to attend an event in Dallas. 

The experience of flying has opened doors. Buying a car has expanded my ability to travel also. I will be able to attend more events more frequently. Hopefully this will allow me to explore and meet people. Maybe I will come across the perfect partner.