Wow is replaced with Disappointment

Well "another one bites the dust" and didn't get past the talking stage. Again, he had a lot of nice words but no follow through. He also fell off faster than many.

I had high hopes of not being alone for yet another holiday especially one that I hate so badly. But apparently I'm destined to be alone for every holiday and for whatever reason. This is what I need to accept and be done with. I need to stop wasting energy on things that won't come true. 

Another Quote

True strength lies in submission, which permits one to dedicate her life, through devotion, to something beyond herself. ~ Henry Miller

Amazement continues

Today makes one week since I started talking to Sir. It has been a great week. I know his birthday is coming up next month. He's talked about his past. He also speaks about being concerned with my feelings. He continually re-enforces that he isn't going anywhere.

He is different than others have been. He doesn't pull out the dom card and lay down the law which I would rebel against. Instead, He talks to me. He tells me what he doesn't like and how he wants to correct.

During our conversations, He also makes states that he may think I don't hear but I do. He makes reference about us having a future together. Like today, he said something about when I move to North Carolina. This gives me an indication that we are on the same page. I'm not imagining things.

I do question if I'm jumping too fast. Am I feeling this way because its been so long since I had someone truly in my life? Or the fact that I'm actually a priority? I'm really trying not to let my mind run away which it would be easy to do. I wonder how I will know if its true and he actually likes me? Can he love me? I'm all over the place.

On another front, my local group is throwing their first play party. We have a venue, date and the rules. Its also posted and appears to be receiving attention. I believe it will be a success.

A personal goal for the year is to loose weight. We are having a contest at the office. Plus I'm going to check into yoga and possibly join a local gym. I'm going to be 50 this year and want to try and get into shape. 

All I can say is "Wow"

On New Year's Eve, I had a man hit me up on fetlife. I looked at his profile and responded back. During our brief email interaction, I felt comfortable enough and intrigued to give him my phone number. That was the best thing I could have done.

He ask me if I text and I gave him my number. Instead of texting, he called. We spoke most of that evening and night. It was like we had an instant connection.

We actually had a conversation. There were actual attempts to get to know me. There was an open and honest communication that continues. If there is a question, its ask and answered, not pushed aside.

Tonight during a conversation He text "I will always make sure you are safe and pleased". This sentence thrilled me to no end. No one has ever told me that they would sure I was safe.

Then he has me pleasure myself. I thought we were doing it together but he was more concerned with me getting off then himself. He put my needs first. Getting off made me feel so relaxed and happy.

He says we are going to meet soon. We've discussed possible scenes for the future. All I can say is Wow...I can't wait.