Smiling

I always love it when I get an unexpected call. I have several male friends who I know love me and are there for me in all circumstances. One such friend called me to wish me a belated happy birthday.

When I saw his number as a missed call, I became worried. Usually we don't call unless there is a problem so of course I thought the worse. But luckily it was the best, just belated birthday wishes. He had been sick and had been away from the computer. He didn't want me to think that he had forgotten me so he called.

While we were on the phone, we had to take a few minutes and catch up with each other. He ask if I was dating and I'm not. He said he could tell, I'm happier when I'm not with someone. Its amazing how someone that is 100 miles away can see when someone close to me can't. Fortunately, I'm not dating so all is good. I did tell him I was talking to a couple but nothing serious.

I also told him I believed with age I have finally came into my cuteness/beauty. He told me I have always been cute but I have allowed others to make me believe differently. He also said I was paranoid about it. Now, I'm confident and have accepted that I have a beauty. I have come into my own. I may not be the most beautiful but I have my own beauty that I can see and accept.

Things are Getting Interesting

Just when I was beginning to give up hope and accept that I was going to spend another holiday season with family, up pops not one but two men. After being stood up on Friday, I checked this dating site I signed up for. I thought well, kink isn't working maybe just dating vanilla.

Well, I actually found someone that I'm compatible with. He is really vanilla which maybe an issue. I just don't know if I can go back or even if I want too. But I have told him I'm into kink and a little about my kink. I have even invited him to attend an event that he is interested in. So I think there maybe some hope if nothing else someone at least to hang with...friend with benefits.

Then the Dominant that stood me up opened a discussion with me and ask for forgiveness. I've set a play date with him because I really need some physical play. I think it would help relieve some stress.

I don't know where either of these relationships are going, its really too earlier. I don't think the Dominant is the one to seriously lead me but will be good to have some play for a time. My vanilla may not like my level of kink but then again it just maybe the beginning of a beautiful friendship. Only time will tell...I will keep you posted.

I meet vanilla on Friday and play date is Sunday....busy busy!!!!

Birthday Weekend

This past weekend was my birthday weekend and I had some great plans. However, they were just plans. I find that most of the time when I make plans something always interferes and things don't turn out as well as I plan. Where as if I sort of wing things I have a much better time.

Such as Friday, there were 2 events. One I wanted to attend more than the other and I believed I had expressed this to the Dominant that I had been speaking too. I believe we had even agreed to go to the event that I so wanted to go to. Then on Friday, he mentions about shooting pool which indicates the opposite event than the one I actually wanted. I thought OK...I can shoot pool and we can continue to get to know each other. This meeting I will have a lot more time to get ready and I will really be able to impress him.

That didn't happen. As agreed, I text when I was leaving home cause the event was an hour from my home but only about 15 minutes from his. I figured that would give him time to do what he needed and he could meet me there when I go there or shortly after. So when I arrive, I text "I'm here". Several minutes later I receive a text back stating that he was going to get dressed. I ask if I was going to be left waiting and the response was "yes. Sorry". Didn't go over well...I promptly told him to stay at home.

He tried to explain that Friday's were rough and he had laid down. Well that didn't go far with me. I was tired. Driving home from work, I had a hard time staying awake but I still managed to rest for 30 minutes, grab a hot shower and get myself ready. Plus I had an hour drive all to see someone that couldn't give me the same consideration.

So to say the least this set the tone for the weekend. I hadn't wanted to out with people but decided to take a chance on this Dominant. This was the 3rd meeting and the 2nd time he was basically standing me up. I had done what he ask of me but yet he couldn't respect me enough to be prompt.

Actually it sent me to the couch for the weekend, I didn't have the desire to do anything. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I didn't want to be around anyone. So I stayed at home, watched tv and played online.

Sunday which was my actual birthday. I had 2 encounters. One self reported master who after speaking with him I came to realize he doesn't have a clue, wanted to meet me for lunch and a movie. The funny thing is he didn't wait for me and didn't even tell the truth when he was talking to me. He stated he left the restaurant at one time when I know he left a lot earlier. He also didn't go to the movie because he was calling me from his landline 52 minutes into the movie. I gave him my cell and he emailed he didn't have a cell.

He stated he didn't know what Old Guard Slavery was and ask me to explain aggressive sexual dominance which are a couple of my listed fetishes on Fetlife. Wow...this dude for being in the lifestyle for 25 years must have been hidden. Then he only wanted to talk about what he would do to a sub. He ask if meet n greets were vanilla, then described a dungeon experience as a meet n greet. I truly think he is confused and doesn't have a clue.

My other encounter is a vanilla who is interesting. I don't know where this will go but I plan to meet him and see. I've told him a little about my kink side...didn't want to scare him off yet. But at least he is getting to know me. He text and calls. We talk and have made plans to meet. I wonder if I can go back to vanilla after tasting the darkside? I wonder if I can bring him across?

Great Weekend to Start the Month

I must say that this weekend has been a great start to the month. First it started with Kinky Bowl V on Friday night. I met some new people and saw some old friends. Of course, I was able to get a couple of practice games in...lol.

Then Saturday I was able to stay a little closer to home with a meet n greet for the Zanesville group. The location was nice. It wasn't crowded for a Saturday night and had a DJ. The food was good also. I wasn't able to stay a long time but did have a chance to get my groove on and do some chatting.

Now I just need to get ready for next weekend...the anticipation is going to kill me.