Cravings

I'm a very independent, strong-willed woman who has been the matriarch of the family. I have always been the one to take care of any issue that may arise. I've worked and went to college while still being a force within my children's lives. My babies have always been a priority, actually my only priority. I always stated "my girls were unable to care for themselves but the men in my life were able too". Plus I knew that I was never a priority for any man.

All the men that I have been involved with has had their own agenda to operate by with little regard to what I needed or wanted so it has always been easy to walk away from these relationships. Don't get me wrong, I didn't walk away without hurt. I have always put my all into whatever I do and the includes my partners. I just haven't received the same from them.

So this leaves me lonely and craving. When I'm really stressed and overwhelmed, I sometimes crave to be tired up. I think the confinement would provide me with a level of safety and security which may help to elevate some of the negative that I'm feeling. I'm still waiting to test this theory.

Another theory/craving that I have is when I'm agitated, I want my partner to take control. I want to be forced to the bed, laying with the weight of my partner on top of me. Through touch, I want him to seduce my body. I want him tie me up to show me who is in control. I want him to proceed to convert my anger to those passionate feelings that I know exist. I want my neck kissed, my nipples pinched, my clit rubbed, licked and pinched. I want his fingers to probe my vagina and ass. I want him to tease me, take me almost to the brink of orgasm just to stop and repeat it over and over again. Then to take me and allow me the most intense release that I have ever felt.

Since I have learned about D/s, I have craved finding the right man to take control. At first, just in the bed room but once trust and respect have been established, I hope the limits are endless.