I'm awake and ranting

I'm awake as usual. I really should be sleeping and usually when I wake as I did tonight, I roll around the bed waiting to be reclaimed in the world of restfulness. However, tonight I decided to play online with the hope that I would become tired more quickly and get some rest. Its not working.

I've been reading through some groups, some threads are very thought provoking. Some are just individuals struggling as I have in the past, trying to get some insight on a situation within their lives. What I find amusing is some of the negative of the responses toward the OP. Its like ok I'm having a bad day so I'm sharing with you by putting you and your question down. I believe there is always a way to play the devil's advocate without being negative. But then some just like to grab attention.

The attention whores are the ones that get on my nerves. In the mental health field, we have a name for them...BORDERLINES...which is actually Borderline Personality Disorder. There is no cure for this, its learned behaviors, mostly negative. They scream for attention...look at me...look at how I've been hurt...look at what I can do...I'm the victim, someone come save me. I bet your thinking "Hell I know someone like that". They also lack the ability to take responsibility for there actions and must blame someone else for their failures. They are not honest. They could be caught in a lie and still not give you the truth. They attempt to manipulate people and situations. I must say, I really don't like Borderlines.

This is a good description of my stalker. She attempted to manipulate me in the beginning and when that didn't work, she thought lying would be a better way to cause me problems. However, she had a lot more time on her hands and has been very creative at time. Like knowing I'm sleeping with a mutually known person and they telling him I emailed her to inform her that I was with him. Oh, she did set up an email that was close to my ID, just not the right email, so that she could say "see here's the email". At a glance, you would have assumed it was mine like I said too much time.

Then the fact when something doesn't go the way she wants, she writes threats proclaiming someone has done her wrong. She's making more generalized statements now but still post to receive the sympathy, then apologizes stating she was having a "bad day". If your having a bad day, do you really need to post a thread giving the appearance that your a victim? Can't you just blog about your feeling? No you can't, you can't write. Or maybe your too embarrassed to write because people will see you for what you really are. I didn't forget, you do journal, just no one sees.

She likes to brag about her activities but changes the story someone confronts. Or when she wants to put another down, she forgets her back yard isn't exactly the neatness and she has told too many people different stories in order to get attention.

I believe this type of person will not be successful within this lifestyle especially if they are claiming to be a submissive. They don't think of others, only themselves. For everything they do, they have a hidden agenda. They again attempt to manipulate situations and people especially newbies that don't have a lot of information. They pretend to follow protocols but yet break they all. They say they have rules but they only exist on paper which make them worthless.

Ok...I think I'm done with my rant. Maybe now that I've cleared my mind I will be able to lay down and sleep. Oh, maybe I shouldn't wake up and read threads on Fetlife anymore when I can't sleep. Apparently it only agitates me...lol

Good Night