I've been speaking with a vanilla guy who seems to have a freak side. He has wanted me to have sex but I'm a little timid of actually becoming involved. I've never really had this problem, I'm always been a little hesitate especially when meeting the person for the first time. And yes I believe in having sex on the first date or meeting, need to know if its good or no need to come back.
I've always been self conscious and doubtful about my abilities, but with my last involvement those feelings are intensified. I keep thinking of his words which he said were out of anger and the actions that proceed those words, I can't get them out of my mind.
I don't want to be hurt and I'm attempting to put walls up but I am still resistant to meeting another because of questions. He is calling me "Beautiful" because he believes it or to make me feel good so I will meet him? Is he a player, he states not? Does he have an alternative agenda? What if we meet face to face and he really don't like me? Will he be honest or will he continue to lie to me? So many questions, how do I take the next step?
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