I currently have several dominate men that want to be apart of my life in some fashion. I want to talk about each of them for a minute. They each have their own great qualities.
B is the first Dominate that I ever had any involvement with. I have actually fallen in love with him. However, he has not treated me as a Dominate should. He states he wants the best for me but is so uninvolved with my life. I do have to give him credit, he has helped in me releasing alot of anger that I once had. My previous ex had created so much drama between myself and his other women that I was just angry all the time. I don't have that anger any longer and have been able to move on to focus on B. But he seems not to want or need my service. I gave him my submission and he didn't want it. I did what he requested and tried to make sure he was comfortable in all aspects but he still turned other women. He doesn't communicate with me and wants to blame me for our failing relationship. He doesn't see my true self or capabilities. He also judges me on what he is told by women that don't know me versus what I say and my actions.
Then there is Ray who wishes to be more involved but I don't feel its possible. When I originally met him, I wasn't aware of his dominate side. We communicated a few times and had one sexual encounter. My concern is his "best friend", a female who is involved with my ex. I'm no longer involved and don't want to be around the drama. If we would become involved on a deeper level, he maybe forced to choose between us and that wouldn't be fair to him. I wouldn't want to put him in that situation.
Glenn I met online in October of 2009. We started chatting and texting. He is a Dominate also and loves to participate in BDSM activities. He has helped me learn and has himself been patient with me. When I get an attitude, he attempts to talk to me but will leave me alone to calm down. My frustration with him is he only wants an online relationship. I would think that would be hard at least for me. I need the touch of the person, I need to explore some activities. He told me the other day that he trust me cause I haven't hid things from him. I have even confided in him. He just has alot going on. He works 2 jobs and is facing some medical issues. He lives a poly lifestyle. He once told me he had 2 subs and 2 slaves but none live with him.
Aaaawwww...MK. I like the interaction I have with him. He ask me things and listens to what I have to say. He is also willing to help me explore things that I have been interested in. He put me in ropes and I believe I liked it. Next we are going to play with candles and ropes some more. I've told him I didn't see a future with us and he didn't get anger. He is still willing to help mentor me and explore the activities that I have had fantasies about. He is extremely understanding. I haven't seen the dominate side but I'm sure I will at some point. He lives a poly relationship and I have actually gained a new level of acceptance. I have interaction with his primary who is very caring and accepting.
I want a long term 24/7 D/s relationship. I want to be collared and owned. I just don't know if any of these men are it. I'm going to take my time and continue learning. I want to find the right man for me. The perfect fit. Only the future will tell.
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I'm a strong,independent woman who has only recently became aware of my submissive side. In reviewing my life, I have wanted to relinquish control and be dominated.
About Me
- sensualfreak
- I have recently had my submissive side awakened. I've had some tough times while learning to accept what I have always been. With acceptance, we are able to move to the next level.
Quotes
"It means nothing to dominate the weak....it's a badge of honor to dominate the strong.... Show me a strong, confident and assertive woman who kneels submissively at your feet ...and I'll show you a slave worth owning" ~Author Unknown
"Submission is not about sex. Submission is not something one can learn. It is not sex. It is not dirty.
Submission is beauty. It is a beauty that comes from the very soul of a submissive woman.. It is a breaking down of the walls built up in her lifetime, allowing the beautiful, sensual woman to come through.
Submission is about sensuality. It is about trust, communication, vulnerability, caring and honesty. It is about being graceful, sensual, beautiful woman that resides within.
Submission is about knowing who you are, and what you want. A submissive is NOT a weak person but just the opposite. She is strong. Shis is strong in herself, and in the knowledge of who she is. She NEVER submits out of weakness or desperation. She submits out of strength, love and trust.
Submission is freedom. It is a letting go of one's self, knowing that the Dominant is there to catch her if she falters. It is about pushing to be the very best one can be, not only as a submissive, but as a woman."
-Unknown Author-
"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don't mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don't mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding. "— Anais Nin -
“The difference between a truly dominant man and a controlling one is that the dominant man needs and wants consent, whereas the controlling man doesn’t even understand what this word means.” -Sir J-
"Submission can actually engender power: realizing that you have something to give, and that you are capable of mastering your own will to give it up the way your top wants it instead of the way you think S/He should want it, can inspire pride: not the false pride of an inflated ego, but the true pride that, like humility, comes from knowing the depths of your self." — William Henkin.
“Without my dominance you cannot submit. Without your submission I cannot dominate. You are my equal in this, though our roles are different.” - Valyraen
"Submission is not about sex. Submission is not something one can learn. It is not sex. It is not dirty.
Submission is beauty. It is a beauty that comes from the very soul of a submissive woman.. It is a breaking down of the walls built up in her lifetime, allowing the beautiful, sensual woman to come through.
Submission is about sensuality. It is about trust, communication, vulnerability, caring and honesty. It is about being graceful, sensual, beautiful woman that resides within.
Submission is about knowing who you are, and what you want. A submissive is NOT a weak person but just the opposite. She is strong. Shis is strong in herself, and in the knowledge of who she is. She NEVER submits out of weakness or desperation. She submits out of strength, love and trust.
Submission is freedom. It is a letting go of one's self, knowing that the Dominant is there to catch her if she falters. It is about pushing to be the very best one can be, not only as a submissive, but as a woman."
-Unknown Author-
"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don't mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don't mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding. "— Anais Nin -
“The difference between a truly dominant man and a controlling one is that the dominant man needs and wants consent, whereas the controlling man doesn’t even understand what this word means.” -Sir J-
"Submission can actually engender power: realizing that you have something to give, and that you are capable of mastering your own will to give it up the way your top wants it instead of the way you think S/He should want it, can inspire pride: not the false pride of an inflated ego, but the true pride that, like humility, comes from knowing the depths of your self." — William Henkin.
“Without my dominance you cannot submit. Without your submission I cannot dominate. You are my equal in this, though our roles are different.” - Valyraen
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