Who am I

I've started the search for a Dominate yet again. I'm speaking with several who have been very thought provoking.

LV actually contacted me with the intention of chatting about my tat. During the conversation, we decided to take it further. He ask me "why you want to serve anyone" and "what does service do for you'. I couldn't really answer these questions. He told me that I had to focus on me, not the other person. This is a really new concept for me. I'm so use to focusing on everyone else, I'm afraid I lost me.

We also discussed wants and needs. I stated I wanted a Dominate and I'm beginning to believe this may be more of a need instead of a want. Also, I didn't realize that being a submissive is a burden. I'm asking someone else to make decisions that affect me. Its like raising my children and I never thought of it that way.

I'm looking forward to this new exploration. I have been so set on exploring the physical side that I didn't consider anything else.