I'm totally baffled by today's events. My play partner went from stating "I don't want a relationship...I'm not in a relationship" to "I'm a Dom/Top, your topping from the bottom" all because I'm vocal about my displeasure in his sub cyber stalking me and attempting to damage my reputation not only in the lifestyle but professionally.
He also stated I haven't done a real scene because I have not played in public. And since I have only "attempted" at play with him, I haven't deserved aftercare because I didn't go to sub space. All this information was provided from Doms at a play party that endorses subs that follow no protocols. We attended two play parties where he didn't question any Doms about our situation.
In the 8 months that I was seeing him, our relationship was to be strictly sexual. However, he stopped having sex. When I he was attracted to me, he stated he was only stressed out by life's events. But today, I received the following email "Fuck you you crazy bitch I am most happy to get off your bullshit ride we have been on.I hope you find what ever it is your cazy ass is looking for.I would'nt do the things you wanted b/c I knew you was fuckin nuts.an it would only be a matter time before would dismiss yourself.you are your own problem if you that your pride an put it in back of you some more people might like you.beside wendy an shawn.I know a long time ago you would never work out.an the main reason I did,'nt fuck you is because you suck at that too.so if you want me to say who is better let's see who am I with.an you are with who oh yea I forgot you need someone to say your rite all the time".
The only thing I wanted was from him is to protect me from his cyber stalking sub. He didn't even believe me until she indirectly admitted it 6 months later. But I'm topping from the bottom. Oh and I had to address the issue of her slanderous statements in 2 different groups on Fetlife.
When I informed him that I didn't trust him, he stated he couldn't trust me not to call the police. Don't know where this came from, I never even threatened too. I did tell him my fantasy was to be forced but I didn't expect him to fulfill it. I thought it was just a conversation between two individuals that were friends and like-minded. Boy I was wrong.
Oh...I did tell him I'm Bipolar and I had concerns with sub drop. Also informed him that I would not be dominated any place other than the bedroom. I thought I was speaking English but I guess I was wrong.
I can say it another chapter is closed. No one wants to be with another who isn't interested or is dishonest. Or who confuses vanilla with this potentially freaky lifestyle that has endless possibilities.
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