Nervous

As I enter into a new phase of this lifestyle and life in general, I am excited but nervous. I'm even beginning to wonder if its real. I guess that is apart of a long distance relationship.

While waiting to met the Dominate I believe will teach me all the pleasure of the lifestyle, I worry about if he will like me? Will his words turn to actions?

Then I turn the worries to myself, will I be able to handle the pain? Will I find pleasure in pain? Will he show how pleasure and pain go hand in hand?

So many questions, will I find the answers? I truely hope so and hope it is soon.