I should have known that happiness doesn't last. During the summer, I had several months of peace which I could say I was happy. I had other parts of my life that were stressful but I was satisfied with how my submission was developing. I had found a man that I was comfortable with as a Dominate. I was also able to find a play partner.
Toward the middle of the summer, there was some rocky roads. Sir was busy with work but we chatted from time to time. I always attempted to keep him updated with what was going on with me.
With my play partner, things totally fell apart. We would smooth things over but things really didn't go back to what they were. As time continued, I began to loose trust. I continued to encourage him in his exploration of the lifestyle and other areas. However, in the end, nothing I did really mattered. He recently began to criticize all my actions. I second guessed him...at least that was his version. Now, I did nothing but play games, again his version.
The shame in the situation is he didn't take the time to even get to know me. He, as others have, missed the best part of me. He also told me tonight that I was basically not a good sub. We went to an event together and he was able to observe "good subs". The funniest part of the whole situation was WE WERE PLAY PARTNERS. He didn't OWN me. I choose to submit but it was only required in the bedroom.
The other funny part, I caught him in a lie. Of course, I forgot a conversation that never took place...his excuse.
Another Chapter Closed. Hopefully the future ones will be better.
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