Well, I've been given another task and I'm really not wanting to do it. My last one was putting rubber bands around my breast and having them change colors. He actually wanted them blue but due to time, they didn't go all the way blue. Ok, now Sir wants me to put the rubber bands around my breast and put clothes pins on them. Sir wants to see them bruised. All this sounds very painful and I'm not really into inducing self pain.
Just an update, I'm feeling more like myself. I'm still a little depressed but I'm not having those overwhelming doubts that I was having last week. I'm able to think and rationalize. I feel I can see more clearly now. To much hit me at once.
I think I'm going to speak with Sir about helping me exercising and eating better. I want to loose weight but I'm not motivated at this time. Maybe if I can get into a schedule and have some accountability, I will be able to achieve my goals. I'm going to email him before I punk out.
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awwww..yes, it sounds painful, but i am sure you will find strength within yourself to accomplish wish of your Sir and make him proud of you. I started reading your blog and I love it. I will join your followers:)
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Yowza. That sounds painful.
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are going to need one heck of a big girl pill to deal with the rubber bands and clothes pins!
Rubber bands and clothespins...Ouch.
ReplyDeletePersonally, I find it the most motivating thing ever when my Dominant helps motivate me with those things of self improvement like taking care of myself. Hope it works for you!