A head of the Game

In my opinion, I have had a major break threw on several levels. First, I went to 2 munchs last week. One was MORAL where I was recognized by Kit. She introduced me around the room and then invited me to sit at her table and not alone. I was invited to sit at another table where I had a pleasant dinner and light conversation.

On Sunday, I went to a toy/a lil of everything party then on to a munch which actually meets in my area. Some of the same people were present on Sunday that was present on Thursday. One slave even recognized me from Thursday.

During the party, I felt a lil out of place. Everyone was coupled up and the only extra female actually came with another couple and was a slave to that couple. I was actually upset with my ex. He always said I wouldn't do anything or do what he wanted when it was he that denied me the desired experiences. I also realized I had alot of vanilla thoughts to overcome.

There was a dominate and his sub present who would be giving the demo at the munch. They spoke about kilts, boot blacking and respect. What was nice is, the dominate spoke about Old Guard. This was something familiar to me because someone had me do some research. I also realized that this is the type of dominate I wanted. Someone with knowledge of the different lifestyles within the lifestyle. He may not agree with it but was aware of it. So when a dominate appoaches me, I know what to ask. This will help single out the want-a-bes.

It has also became apparent that the relationship I was in for 9 months last year and 3 months this year was nothing more than lies. This was very upsetting to me. I knew things were wrong. Patterns were developing. I should have really took the hint when he left because I could sleep with other women and he couldn't. This was his rule, not mine. He said he was loyal and didn't cheat. However, he only presented a contract to me so that he could cheat. With a contact and acknowledged as his slave, I wouldn't have been able to voice my displeasure without suffering discipline.

The dominate I met at the Sunday munch gave me his card. He identifies as a Lifestyle Coach. I ask what the difference was between being a coach and mentor and was told a coach is broader based. That wasn't his exact words but what I interpreted.

I also had the pleasure of speaking to an individual who identified himself as a dom. He stated he was looking for a sub or someone with sub like traits. I said I quailified. He stated he had stipulations. When I ask what they were and he provided, it was laughable. He wanted me to swallow and allow him to cum in me. When I informed him that wasn't going to happen, he said later. I blew him off the first time cuz I knew he wasn't a dom, he was just out to get a piece of ass.

I have an interest in black men but none appear to be very honest. The state they are dominates to get laid and have aggressive sex when they actually don't have a clue. I have only spoken with one that seems to be real and it wasn't my ex.