Friends

Meeting people online can sometimes be very challenging. But then, sometimes one gets very lucky and finds a diamond. I believe I'm been lucky of late. I have found several diamonds. I hope someday to meet all my diamonds in person.

I believe I will actually get to meet one very soon. She is a bi-sexual female. She stated to me that it was hard to find a truly bi female and I agree with her. We have had several conversations and have somethings in common.

I also need to acknowledge some of the men that I have met. The are supportive and encouraging. When I'm feeling down about things, they always know what to say to lift my spirits.

So sometimes, one has to go through a lot of toads to find those that are princesses and princes.

New Tat

Ok...once you get one tattoo, you are always looking for the next. At least that is how I am. I have actually found my next tat. I've talked to my tat guy and now I just got to figure out when.

I got my first one in the beginning of summer. I got my second one just a month ago and I'm wanting another. They are just so addicting.

Isn't it beautiful...

Assisting Changes

I had thought about this several times and finally did it. I'm using my pool to assist with my potential changes. Its a shame that getting a my new tat has motivated me to change my body shape.

I started tonight by walking 20 minutes in the pool and then doing some laps: freestyle, side and back stroke. I play to do this every evening but if I accomplish it 4 evenings a week, I will consider it a success.

Differences

Something that I have been thinking a lot about lately is the difference that socioeconomic and the effects within the lifestyle. Some are probably thinking, she is off and on another tangent. But if you take a serious look, there is a definite differences in several areas.

Those that are lower on the social ladder find the that a Dominant just needs to proclaim his dominance and a submissive must bowel. They interpret things much differently and its extremely hard to change the opinion was they have grasp on to an idea. There is no gray area. Its all just black and white. They are extremely limited and narrow in their thinking with little ability to process information. There is also a fair amount of dishonesty which for some reason is accepted.

However, when you move up the social ladder, even just a few rungs, you find more openness to things. More willingness to except another and their potential differences. The thinking is more open, honest and accepting. Morals and ethics become an importance. Rules and protocols exist and are welcome to keep some order.

This is just my beginning thoughts. I will most likely add on to this thought/theory as I experience different groups and individuals.

Changes have begun...

Ok...I got my hair cut. I got 10 inches cut off to donate to Locks of Love. Of course another inch probably came off while getting it layered. Now, I'm considering a perm. I have some natural curl especially when it is shorter but I don't think its short enough to do anything but hang there.

I also believe that I have figured out my next tat. A heart with tribal around it on my upper arm. Also thinking about my tribal Pegasus on calf.

G is always so positive. I wish he didn't live so far away. I think he would be the perfect Dominant for me. He has taken the time to get to know me. He would get my sense of humor but would actually give me direction when I need it.

Someone new decided to strike up a conversation last night. He seemed really nice but we will see. I still wonder if G is the perfect dominant for me and will til we meet face to face.

Changes

I had to work late this evening and the drive home provided time to think and reflect. I came up with, its time for changes.

I'm loosing weight, slowly but still loosing. Work is falling into place and the stress has been reduced. I'm getting my mind together and I'm starting to feel good about a lot of things. So now, its time to change my look. I think I'm going to do something with my hair, cut and perm maybe, a little more color.

I also haven't had a vacation in 4 years so its time to plan another. I need to revisit Pensacola and enjoy the sun. I need to be re-new friends so some mini vacations are needed.

I think this is going to be a great summer. The sun does help to re-energize...

Forward Motion

It has appeared that I have not been moving forward. In a sense, my life is on hold because of my grandson. However, only a part is on hold. The rest should be moving forward. One part that I have neglected of late is my submission.

I think part is tied to an interaction with an individual that wasn't positive. This stunted me in my ability to learn and grown. I became discouraged. I stopped reading, stopped following the blogs that have a lot of information and haven't attended a munch or event. I put apart of my life on hold that wasn't necessary. So now its time to get back in the swing of things.

I have a date with a "booty bump" which will hopefully get me back on track sexually. My sex drive has been nothing. I have to admit this could be my age but it might have also been impacted by the negative interaction.

I've also set up a time to be tied up this weekend. I think the feel of the rope will give me some comfort. This is just a theory but I think it will provide a level of security much like swaddling an infant. I think most will understand the concept. I'm also hoping the scene will re-new my desire to submit. 

On Fetlife in the last couple of days, there has been several threads speaking about a good sub or being submissive who is unpartnered. Within those threads, there have been a lot of great points that makes an individual think.

One thing that I have thought about is I don't have to settle. Its ok to be unpartnered. I can still learn and grown so when the right partner comes along, I will be prepared.