Weeding Out

Well, according to the status, my blog is getting read which is more than I ever expected. I was actually hesitate to share my feelings and thoughts but everyone has been so supportive.

On the Dom front, there really isn't much to tell. I have several that have sent me messages on Fetlife. I've responded. I have even spoken with a few through Yahoo IM but no one that really jumps out at me. Most are out of state which is what I prefer. Those in state, I can't even begin to know who to trust and who not too. The reason is a post all in its self.

Back to the men, its been a long time since I felt the touch of a man. I allowed my need to overcome me and I agreed to meet someone. I hadn't even ask for a pic which is usual for me. I also choose someone that was connected to a bitch that has caused nothing but trouble in my life for the last 3 years. I allowed my need to feel the touch of another to over rule all that I built to protect me. However, he managed to make me feel uncomfortable enough to back out just days before our pending meeting.

When someone approaches, you have an expectation that they want to be with you for whatever reason. Maybe if he likes what he taste, he will want to develop something longer term than just a night. But when all the dude wants to talk about is having a 3sum without even trying you first, there is a problem from the beginning. I even stated I wanted us to fuck before including anyone else. But he continued to talk about including another female. I finally stated I didn't think he had the right person. I don't mind being a booty call but at least give me the attention while we are together. Once we are both comfortable, lets explore and include others.

I was a little disappointed that I wouldn't be meeting this new guy. I really need some physical interaction. I'm tired of servicing myself. I'm tired of sexting.

But on the light side, I have had some positive interactions. I'm planning some vacations that will be associated with the individuals that seem appealing. There is one in California, another in Texas; and, of course, I want to return to Florida.

One of my more positive interactions is a female. She found my ID in a yahoo group. Its more of a swing group but she has said she is living a D/s relationship. She is married to a BBC and speaks about some of the things they do. The parties they have. I believe she is a Domme. Well, she has stated she is a Domme. She has mentioned meeting me which I find quite exciting and think I would enjoy. She would dominate me and I believe her husband would totally take me over.