Things in my life have been chaos. Work has been long and stressful which is why I have neglected writing. I'm not able to attend events due to work and car repairs. Plus I have to get serious about looking for a Dominant to seriously explore the pleasure pain thing.
Over the years and last several months, I have come to realize that I need a Dominant that is experienced. The inexperience ones become easily frustrated and show weakness which I'm able to exploit. Plus the inexperience ones feel full of themselves. Being aggressive sexually doesn't always mean one is a Dominant. The inexperience ones appear to be inpatient and don't always have the necessary information or rely on those with questionable characters for information which is shows their unreliability to the lifestyle.
I've had a bad week where the intent was the blame was to be placed on me. I was reportedly argumentative and sexually undesirable. I have the ability to be argumentative but wasn't. As for sexually undesirable that is so far from the truth and I won't even begin to make that my issue.
I have spoken to 2 ex partners who disagree and would love to have time with me. I also spoke with a man that could actually dominate me if we were in the same state who disagrees and he hasn't been with me. Then there was another who is willing to take care of me sexually and is actually excited about our upcoming meeting.
As for finding a Dominant, I now must ask about experience. Probably should also ask about why they are single and what has happened in previous relationships.
I wish G was closer. I think he truly understands me and I know he loves me. I believe he would cherish me while exploring. He does often want to choke me but he tells me when I have gotten him to that point...lol.
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