What a Week

I'm so glad this week is coming to an end. Because Sir is busy with his work, we haven't chatted in almost 2 weeks. He did surprise me by posting He missed me on my Fetlife wall which put a smile on my face. He also attempted to contact me on IM but I was sleeping at the time. Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to chat with him a little more.

Then my play partner is being an ass. Of course, I figured things would be rough this week. He told his "supposed" sub that he was attending an event with me and as I predicted, she has been causing problems.

I guess the primary reason I've been upset with him is because of his actions. I really don't think expecting a phone call is too much. Then he continually compares me to the bitch. I'm nothing like her. She yells and makes statements with no foundation. I would even say she has developed some delusions. And if I have a problem with her, I attempt to address it with her. When she has a problem, she runs to him and screams like he can really do anything to me.

I guess my frustration is we don't have a D/s relationship. We have stated it is strictly sexual. However, I have attempted to look out for him. He is naturally agressive and an alpha male but wants to go further to become a Dominate and then Master. He wants to build skills for play. He has come to the realization that he is a sadist and enjoys dishing out his fair share of pain and torture. He wants to learn to do it the right way, to inflict pain without damaging. I'm trying to show him the avenues to find the information so he can achieve his goal.

My real frustration comes when this "supposed" sub tells him something. She comes up with protocols but doesn't follow any herself. She states to everyone that she is his sub but doesn't act like one. She doesn't look out for him, his needs or wants. She is jealous and out of control. And when she is upset, I'm brought into the conversation. She is sneaky. I have blocked her from my page for a reason and she finds others to view my page and report back to her just so she can bitch about what he is doing with me. She doesn't see her behaviors are affecting her relationship.

Well, even with all my frustrations concerning my play partner, I chose to continue with the weekend. However, we were unable to attend the rope class or champagne room. I was extremely disappointed because I had so looked for to it for several months. But I finally realized that I no longer had the attention of my play partner. He wasn't in the least interested in having sex. I had to ask to be fucked which was very short. Neither of us were really satisfied.

I ask what happened to our sex life. It was so great the first 2 months, then about 6 weeks ago something happened and I really don't understand. I told him I would not return until he ask and again showed some interest. He stated he was distracted and had a lot going on. But today the truth finally came out. He accused me of lying and stated I acted just like his "supposed" sub.
Yes, I had been giving him attitude but it wasn't due to what she was doing but due to his behaviors. There was a change in our relationship. Instead of him being honest with what was wrong, he wanted to attempt to correct my attitude. What he failed to realize is we weren't in a D/s relationship, he kept saying we were just sexual. Even that wasn't even true.

But, oh well, on to the next chapter. I so need a play partner. Sir told me to go get fucked. He thinks that will help me over all which it probably will...time will tell