Continuing Search

I really don't know where I'm currently heading. I seem to have stalled in the middle of the road. I want to continue to explore but have had some recent experiences that shake my ability to trust. Maybe I just need some time. Maybe I need to get out and meet new people.

I posted in a Fetlife group that I thought I might have waited too long to explore this lifestyle. The responses were encouraging. One even told me to check other sites and provided a list. Another encouraged me to get more involved in my local community. I've actually searched for events and want to attend a play party. However, it has been suggested that you don't attend alone and I don't really have anyone to attend with me.

I've continued to follow several blogs which have been very informative. Also topics that are of interest are discussed along with their day to day interactions with their Dominants. I'm also following blogs that are wrote by Dominants which provide insight to how one thinks and reacts to some situations. The only thing I'm really lacking is physical experience which I've been really anxious to try.

The one thing that really amazes me is most view me as they want to see me. They really don't take the time to get to know me. To know what I like or learn how I will react to some situations. They don't see I'm capable of providing exceptional service. My abilities are unnoticed.

My current plans are to continue to read, learn and experience when possible. The search for a Dominant will not have any importance at this time. If a Dominant that I can trust and that I'm attracted to should present, it will be all good.