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I have recently had my submissive side awakened. I've had some tough times while learning to accept what I have always been. With acceptance, we are able to move to the next level.

Monday, July 8, 2013

I Know Who I Am

I know who I am, why can't others see. I'm a strong, intelligent, independent woman. I wasn't made this way, I learned so that I could survive. Now, my submissive side is so buried that I don't know if it will survive. 

I've had to nurture my dominance so that I could provide for my children, work my way through college, survive 2 bad marriages and multiples bad relationships that all had agendas that wanted something from me without giving anything in return. My submission and good nature was taken advantage of because it wasn't nurtured, it was abused and neglected. 

And now, after all the hurt, neglect and abuse, its no wonder I don't trust or allow anyone to get close. It seems when I begin to get comfortable and think that maybe this a person I can let in, something happens. It might be me getting nervous and picking a fight or them being over sensitive when I'm trying to be playful. But whichever, walls are built and a separation occurs. Loneliness continues.  

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